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taintedside @ 2004-04-03T15: 09:00

finally wake up ... To tell the truth is that in one hour walk, but want a chat with my parents, want breakfast ...
Strangely, I realized that I'm finally well (apart from the factor allergic) by the fact that I do when I wake up rested even after 9 hours of sleep after 23 hours of wakefulness. Strangely enough, I wake up energy without repeating: "Oh my God another day!" I could stay up a week and do not feel fatigue. I'm not totally out of control or splashed into a kind of artificial happiness, are simply serene. Of course I read it, written by me for more, does something, right? Are peaceful and just proves the fact that I even want to put a clean machine, which I do for a long, long time.
Creed. No, not in the sense that I believe in god ... in what we believe, but in a way my own. I believe in tomorrow but I think especially in today, in the present, I think I'm here and I do not think just to feel good, actually I'm fine. I believe nothing of what I have experienced so far will ever impress me as the magic that I could see tomorrow, I think that the mere fact of being alive and able to enjoy a sunny day is a milestone for me, for me the sun I always hated the color and also loving all that it alone can show us.
Moreover, the capacity of man shine only at night when everything is dark and only his hands can give color to life. I know my abilities, and pass me the vulgarity, slut bitch I was amazed. I did not believe in myself while I realized to be worth much, much more than people around me believe and especially a few billion times more than I thought. I know part of me that I did not think existed and only now that I see with equanimity I can give real value to those parts of me that some time ago I was upset, which made me think of being an absolutely insane and inhumane.
are stronger than they have ever been and that makes me feel good, I learned determination of silence and words, to contain the screams of rage and apply them in fact, who else deserves to suffer, cry, blow up the nerves, kill with a word or a glance, to be able to make derisive behavior that was annoying to me by people who are around ... I bought weapons in short. I bought so many other weapons and sharp and I realize that I fight with intelligence and great ability, with patience and I apply my strength every day, persisting and multiplying the effect of my thoughts exponentially.
I'm going to clean the machine now, later probably still write a few lines:)